Saturday, April 24, 2010
Something very weird has been happening to Jordan and I, but specifically me. I dream, nearly every night, that one or both of the babies is in bed with us and I am smothering them. Generally, I jolt up with my heart racing, rip back the covers, throw the pillows around and then wake up and realize it's all a dream. Jordan has had it a few times as well, but it is slightly more dramatic for me, given my penchant for both sleep talking and sleep walking. I genuinely believe there is a baby buried somewhere in the duvet cover and I completely panic, whereas Jordan has the dream, wakes up, realizes the duvet is just the duvet, and goes back to sleep. It happened with Rio too, but for some reason it's happening more frequently this time around. The funny thing is that it's not remotely possible that we smother them because they are never in bed with us. Don't get me wrong, the family bed works for some and I'm cool with that, but I am definitely not cool with it for us. I can barely stand the sound of them through the baby monitor at the opposite end of the house, much less the same room, nay, same bed as us. So why is this happening?! What kind of anxiety is this really representing?! Other parents - have you had this weirdo dream too?? Make it stop!!