Today is slightly better than yesterday. I cut the tramadol and have been managing with just tylenol and ibuprofen. I am in more pain than I'd like to be, but the absence of severe nausea is worth it. That said, the nausea is still there, so not feeling great. On top of that I have no energy and any time I get out of bed I can't stay up long, but I know rest is important so I'm staying in bed as much as possible. I figure the further I go post surgery, the better the nausea has to get, right?
On a positive, last night I was finally allowed to take a shower. That helped with feeling human! I did accidentally get a look at the incision though, and that caused some tears (like a good hour's worth). Pretty traumatic.
On an even more positive note, we just returned from having the drain removed. That is a really gross feeling I won't soon forget! But I already feel like I am carrying myself more normally - much less tight and awkward. Although it was pinned to me in two places, I realized how guarded I was, constantly worrying it would get tugged out.
Otherwise, the rest of the house is doing great. Jordan's sister Chelsea has been an absolute god-send. The kids have been out of the fun having sooo much fun every day and I think they are going to feel ripped off when they have boring old mama back! I am starting to really miss the boys. As I mentioned yesterday they are being very strange around me and it is only getting worse. I think it is probably very confusing for them that I am around but not interacting with them - it would almost be better or at least less confusing if they couldn't see me. That said, all three of them are being angels for Chelsea so at least I don't have to listen to meltdowns happening when there's nothing I can do about it. I am hoping that now without the drain I will be able to interact with them a bit more. It's going to be a long couple of weeks if not.
Just now trying to force in some lunch and then nap. Yesterday I literally spent the entire day napping, so the fact that I have been awake since 7am today (and even attempting lunch) is probably a good sign in itself. Here's hoping for bigger improvements tomorrow.