I've had several people over the past couple of days say varying incantations of "I didn't know it was a big deal" - in regards to my surgery.
This post is to tell you - it's actually that big of a deal.
Sure, not for the surgeon, I'm sure he could have done it in his sleep (my particular surgeon has done this 1000+ times). But for me, it was. If you haven't noticed, my incision is surprisingly big. He was in there for 2 hours - cutting God knows what, but obviously something detailed. I have been in a lot of pain, and overall feeling much worse than I could have imagined. I'm not allowed to lift my kids. That alone has been heartbreaking, aside from the physical pain it would cause.
Sure this wasn't open heart surgery, but it wasn't a tonsillectomy either.
And compared to the life or death drama we faced for all those months with the boys, this does rate low.
But for not just me, our entire family, this has been hard. Jordan has been amazing. Our helpers have gone above and beyond (and of course all the offers of help we haven't taken have been much appreciated!). The kids are being nearly perfect angels. But this is starting to wear on all of us. People are getting tired and cranky and we all want our life back. Normal isn't a word I like to use anymore - but right now, I want things back to our normal. Thankfully I am spending more and more time out of bed so we're getting there.
And let's not forget the whole reason this surgery happened - because the lump might have been CANCER*. So ya, there's that.
Is this post completely self centered and asking you to feel sorry for me? Absolutely. But this whole ordeal has really SUCKED. So there you have it. A big deal.
*People keep asking when we will find out and I realize I haven't addressed that. I see the surgeon next week and if he doesn't have results I will find out the timeline then. Thank you for your concern :)
Edit: This post may appear to be pointing the finger at those who said they didn't realize it was a big deal when that's not really what I meant to portray. No one has meant it to be malicious or even insensitive - more ill informed about the procedure itself. Hence this post - INFORMATION! The truth of the matter is, if I've got a problem with anyone, it's the people that haven't said anything AT ALL....