Excited!

In one more sleep it's Christmas Eve - and I'm as excited (or more so) than Rio.

This is a big deal - a really big deal. Jordan and I have commented many times this Christmas season how good it feels to be excited. We're not used to it. You see, the past few Christmases have been not so great:

2008 - HORRIBLE. 2 weeks prior to Christmas was the hardest thing we had ever been through.

2009 - HORRIBLE. Boys in hospital + remembering how HORRIBLE the year before was.

2010 - Not quite so horrible, but bitter and sad bogged down by the previous 2 Christmases and really not able to get into the spirit.

2011 - EXCITED! We have been through our crap, damnit! It doesn't matter that we've had a few rough years around Christmas time. When I think about those times I still get sad, and probably will for a good long time. But the difference is, this year the sadness is not at the forefront, it is lingering back where I can mostly hide it away. This year we are ready to celebrate - enjoy the kids, the tree, the food, the drink, the generosity, and the general merriment of the season.

Can I reiterate again how good that feels?

Hurry up and come Christmas Eve! I'm ready to stuff my face and laugh and enjoy my family. BRING IT, Christmas!