Today Asher saw his neurologist. After the snow storm last week cancelled our appointment, we were lucky enough that she had some cancellations today so they could get us in right away. I thought this was a bit of a "nothing" appointment today because she is not his primary doctor and he hasn't yet had his MRI, but still it's nice to check in with all of his specialists every once in a while.
Predominantly we talked about the MRI and whether or not we should do it. She put no pressure on us, reminding us that NOTHING is going to change as a result - his brain is damaged whether we have a picture of it or not.
But of course I cried, worrying that the results are going to show us that the damage is much worse than we anticipate, or that it is going to show damage to a cognitive area when we have been thus far convinced he is cognitively fine. She reminded me that the MRI is not mandatory and if I'm not ready then there is no reason to pursue; I assured her I will never be ready so we should proceed now and she sent off the requisition. I am guessing it will happen in the summer.
We then talked about the future and Asher's abilities and disabilities, along with Nolan's inability to walk, and needless to say those conversations don't leave me feeling very positive or happy. So for this being a "nothing" kind of appointment, it really kind of sucked.
A bit too early for a glass of wine, so I guess I'll have to settle on a tray of brownies. Thank goodness for chocolate.
((HUGS)) For us she wanted us to bring J down 2 years ago, J's was recent and well you know that appointment. For us J's has to be done because of no head ultrasound, but Nolan could just be late.
ReplyDeletePlease have some wine and brownies for me tonight we got the call from galanca(sp) and we have to be down tomorrow and be prepared to be admitted for surgery this week. I can't srink with all the running around I have to do tonight.
Thanks Christina, I prefer at this time to believe Nolan is just late as well. MRI for him can wait, if ever!
ReplyDeleteI'll eat some brownies for you to share the caloric burden. Sending you deep breathes to calm your heart...
ReplyDeleteI hate appointments that leave you feeling crappy. Sending you a virtual hug. I will also be drinking tonight - perhaps I will pretend that we are drinking together so I don't feel guilty about drinking alone :-). Enjoy your wine.
ReplyDeleteGlad we can drink together :)
DeleteFYI the boxed brownie mix at Costco are brilliant for such occasions....easy to whip up and people never suspect they are not sweated over....if you have a friend that needs a brownie fix. Top that with...I hear the Canucks are doing well.... :)
ReplyDeleteReaching through the computer and wrapping you in a big hug. You know I get this.
ReplyDeleteMuch love to you tonight and always.
Thanks mama. It never gets easier does it?!
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