This little cutie (and his brother) spent hours and hours and hours and hours doing therapy.
And seeing specialist after specialist after specialist.
I spent hundreds (thousands?) of hours researching every way we could possibly help Asher reach his fullest potential.
Obviously all of that paid off. But man oh man was it some work.
Today, I had the day "off" work with the kids on spring break. I use "off" loosely, because I was just reminded how much work my life with the boys used to be.
This morning we had an at home visit with Asher's school aged therapists. This afternoon we had an appointment with the seating clinic, followed by a social visit to their early intervention therapy centre. I spent the hours in between researching charities that may help us with the $4000 the government won't cover of the $7000 standing frame Asher needs. After that I dealt with the start of rush hour, and now here I am drinking a late afternoon coffee to help me prepare for the regular activities of the evening.
I am exhausted. And I am absolutely blown away by the fact that this used to be my life.
EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
That realization helps put my exhaustion as a working mom into perspective. Yes, I still have just as much on my plate - but it is different now. I do something during the day that is fulfilling for me. Although Asher still is, and will remain, physically dependent in many ways, his independence grows and astounds me daily. The kids and life in general keep me busy and tired, but it is not the same. A type of tired that going forward I will be a bit more thankful for - comparatively at least.
To those moms currently in the trenches with young ones with some extra challenges - hold on. You'll get there. I know you are exhausted. I know you feel like you're not going to be able to hold together all the stress and appointments and life in general. I know your life feels more chaotic than you ever imagined - because it is. But one day, it'll ease off, if just a little bit. And if you're like me, it'll happen without you even realizing.
This life. Happy, challenging, ever-changing and enlightening. And I wouldn't trade it for anything.